Wednesday, December 24, 2008

roadtrip nightmare

the dashboard was covered with shattered glass. bags, papers, pillows and clothes were thrown to different places. our car hit 3 concrete barriers lining the expressway. traffic was getting heavier. patrol guys were asking me if i was ok.

i looked at the driver's seat and it was already empty. J was out of the car looking for the bus driver who hit our car. I can't move. I felt numb.

i managed to come out of the car and felt my knees shake a bit and tried to sit on one of the barriers for support. i was silent.

it was supposed to be our first road trip together - to celebrate our third year anniversary
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Saturday afternoon, after shopping for some stuff to bring for our trip, i called the resort to confirm our reservation. But the lady informed me that we cannot tour potipot island. So, I impulsely decided to cancel that trip. And called Sherjo and asked for a nice alternative. He suggested Kinabuhayan in Dolores, Quezon.

I searched for Kinabuhayan bed and breakfast on the net and the place looks relaxing.

I called Kinabuhayan and booked a room. We planned to take a Jam bus in Buendia the next morning.

Sunday morning...

J decided to bring a car since it was only a 3-hour drive. I told him, it's impractical because the bus fare will only cost us 100 pesos each.

He had a hard time deciding (he's really fickle) and finally opt to bringing the car.

I was sweetly arguing with him about him driving. And he just told me to kiss him on his cheek so I shut up . I wanted to ask him that we pray for a safe trip but I didn't. Instead, I prayed silently.

I was blissfully happy, that finally, we were on our way to our long-planned trip together. We were happily talking about anything.

Then, there was a call from Jay (owner of the bread and breakfast). He was a bit anxious and asked us, "you're not on your way aren't you?"

He thought we are staying at his place on Monday, but it was immedietely settled. Jay was accomodating.

I thought to myself that something was stopping us to go on with our vacation. First, Potipot island was not accessible, and second, there was a misunderstanding with our Kinabuhayan reservations.

We were joking and talking about what to do in Dolores when suddenly I saw this bus swerving from the right lane to our lane. J tried to step on his brakes but too late. the bus hit the side of the car and we were swept to the left, hitting the concrete barriers.

if not for the second car (who got hit at the rear by another bus) chased the bus who hit us, the Jam bus wouldn't halt. planning to get away?

an hour later, i found myself at the police station. investigation was taking place, statements were taken from the drivers. i just sat there. thinking what had just happened to us

i was traumatized. until now, i can still hear the sound of scraping metals. i can still clearly see the bus swerving to our side, and feel being dragged helplessly to those concrete barriers. it was my first time to be involved in a vehicular accident, my first time to be in a police station, my first time to hear medico legal....

God is really kind, He protected us from the mishap.. although i until now im scared to look at the road, i am still thankful we came out of the car scot-free..

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

of hibernation from love




since there is no anniversary to celebrate;i was single and not-so heartbroken, i went on a roadtrip with 3 of my online friends.

but during the trip, everything reminds me of him. even the trip itself. our destination was sagada. and sagada was the place where we celebrated our first valentine's day.

and while in cabanatuan, i saw this banner advertising ICT - this is where we first met.

and while waiting for our Jollibee order, the number given to us was 15 - dec 15!

yeah yeah.. i am single, just broke up with bf but i don't need jollibee to remind me of that.

when i got back from sagada, flowers were waiting on my coffee table, with two cards.

from a secret admirer? or a stalker? -- NOT!

it was from ex. one card says he's sorry. the other one is a happy anniversary greeting. i still don't know what to do.

merry christmas to me

Friday, December 12, 2008

im off to sagada this weekend.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

breaking up


i finally broke up with him. after 2 nights of exchanging text messages (cheap huh? breaking up through sms) i did it!


dec 9, evening
he asked where should we eat on monday, dec 15 for our mini anniversary celebration. i told him he make a plan for us since i was the one planning our potipot vacation on the 22nd. i don't know how the conversation heated up to an argument. i just told him to surprise me of whatever he is planning on. he thought i wanted it to be something big. but i only wanted him to make an effort this time on planning something for us.


dec 10, morning


i texted him, sort of apologizing for what happened last night. and he replied after 3 hours.


dec 10, evening


he was out with his office mates for a christmas party. and his last text was in the afternoon. and it was already past 10 and i was about to sleep but i still haven't heard from him. i called him instead. i asked him if he received the message i sent him. he said he didn't have the time to check on his phone because he was busy. soo busy?! :(


i got mad at him for not even checking on his phone and for being inconsiderate for not thinking that someone could be waiting to hear from him. (was i shallow?)
dec 11, morningi read his message that was sent at 2am. he reasoned that he was busy. AS USUAL :(


i replied that it has always been like that since he started working there. i understand that his job requires a lot from him time. but i am only asking for a minute or two from him.
after an hour, this is what i read on my phone: "d2 na ko office"


what? here i am making a drama and your response is, "d2 na ko office"????
i asked him why he is ignoring the issue.


no response.


3pm, same day.he sent a message that he is going home to antipolo to get some stuff.
i asked him again if we can talk about us.


no response.


6pm


i got home and texted him not to contact me if he'll just keep on ignoring the issue.
he sent a very long reply-that i don't understand the nature of his job, that i was being selfish, childish, and all sorts.


i was only asking for a little time from him - ang magtext lang.


then there, i broke up with him. to give him time to focus more on his job.


and he replied that if it's what i want then he won't contact me until i call him.


fine!

 
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