roadtrip nightmare

the dashboard was covered with shattered glass. bags, papers, pillows and clothes were thrown to different places. our car hit 3 concrete barriers lining the expressway. traffic was getting heavier. patrol guys were asking me if i was ok.

i looked at the driver's seat and it was already empty. J was out of the car looking for the bus driver who hit our car. I can't move. I felt numb.

i managed to come out of the car and felt my knees shake a bit and tried to sit on one of the barriers for support. i was silent.

it was supposed to be our first road trip together - to celebrate our third year anniversary
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Saturday afternoon, after shopping for some stuff to bring for our trip, i called the resort to confirm our reservation. But the lady informed me that we cannot tour potipot island. So, I impulsely decided to cancel that trip. And called Sherjo and asked for a nice alternative. He suggested Kinabuhayan in Dolores, Quezon.

I searched for Kinabuhayan bed and breakfast on the net and the place looks relaxing.

I called Kinabuhayan and booked a room. We planned to take a Jam bus in Buendia the next morning.

Sunday morning...

J decided to bring a car since it was only a 3-hour drive. I told him, it's impractical because the bus fare will only cost us 100 pesos each.

He had a hard time deciding (he's really fickle) and finally opt to bringing the car.

I was sweetly arguing with him about him driving. And he just told me to kiss him on his cheek so I shut up . I wanted to ask him that we pray for a safe trip but I didn't. Instead, I prayed silently.

I was blissfully happy, that finally, we were on our way to our long-planned trip together. We were happily talking about anything.

Then, there was a call from Jay (owner of the bread and breakfast). He was a bit anxious and asked us, "you're not on your way aren't you?"

He thought we are staying at his place on Monday, but it was immedietely settled. Jay was accomodating.

I thought to myself that something was stopping us to go on with our vacation. First, Potipot island was not accessible, and second, there was a misunderstanding with our Kinabuhayan reservations.

We were joking and talking about what to do in Dolores when suddenly I saw this bus swerving from the right lane to our lane. J tried to step on his brakes but too late. the bus hit the side of the car and we were swept to the left, hitting the concrete barriers.

if not for the second car (who got hit at the rear by another bus) chased the bus who hit us, the Jam bus wouldn't halt. planning to get away?

an hour later, i found myself at the police station. investigation was taking place, statements were taken from the drivers. i just sat there. thinking what had just happened to us

i was traumatized. until now, i can still hear the sound of scraping metals. i can still clearly see the bus swerving to our side, and feel being dragged helplessly to those concrete barriers. it was my first time to be involved in a vehicular accident, my first time to be in a police station, my first time to hear medico legal....

God is really kind, He protected us from the mishap.. although i until now im scared to look at the road, i am still thankful we came out of the car scot-free..

of hibernation from love

since there is no anniversary to celebrate;i was single and not-so heartbroken, i went on a roadtrip with 3 of my online friends.

but during the trip, everything reminds me of him. even the trip itself. our destination was sagada. and sagada was the place where we celebrated our first valentine's day.

and while in cabanatuan, i saw this banner advertising ICT - this is where we first met.

and while waiting for our Jollibee order, the number given to us was 15 - dec 15!

yeah yeah.. i am single, just broke up with bf but i don't need jollibee to remind me of that.

when i got back from sagada, flowers were waiting on my coffee table, with two cards.

from a secret admirer? or a stalker? -- NOT!

it was from ex. one card says he's sorry. the other one is a happy anniversary greeting. i still don't know what to do.

merry christmas to me

im off to sagada this weekend.

breaking up

i finally broke up with him. after 2 nights of exchanging text messages (cheap huh? breaking up through sms) i did it!

dec 9, evening
he asked where should we eat on monday, dec 15 for our mini anniversary celebration. i told him he make a plan for us since i was the one planning our potipot vacation on the 22nd. i don't know how the conversation heated up to an argument. i just told him to surprise me of whatever he is planning on. he thought i wanted it to be something big. but i only wanted him to make an effort this time on planning something for us.

dec 10, morning

i texted him, sort of apologizing for what happened last night. and he replied after 3 hours.

dec 10, evening

he was out with his office mates for a christmas party. and his last text was in the afternoon. and it was already past 10 and i was about to sleep but i still haven't heard from him. i called him instead. i asked him if he received the message i sent him. he said he didn't have the time to check on his phone because he was busy. soo busy?! :(

i got mad at him for not even checking on his phone and for being inconsiderate for not thinking that someone could be waiting to hear from him. (was i shallow?)
dec 11, morningi read his message that was sent at 2am. he reasoned that he was busy. AS USUAL :(

i replied that it has always been like that since he started working there. i understand that his job requires a lot from him time. but i am only asking for a minute or two from him.
after an hour, this is what i read on my phone: "d2 na ko office"

what? here i am making a drama and your response is, "d2 na ko office"????
i asked him why he is ignoring the issue.

no response.

3pm, same day.he sent a message that he is going home to antipolo to get some stuff.
i asked him again if we can talk about us.

no response.

6pm

i got home and texted him not to contact me if he'll just keep on ignoring the issue.
he sent a very long reply-that i don't understand the nature of his job, that i was being selfish, childish, and all sorts.

i was only asking for a little time from him - ang magtext lang.

then there, i broke up with him. to give him time to focus more on his job.

and he replied that if it's what i want then he won't contact me until i call him.

fine!

happy hallow's eve

one of my colleague brought a facepaint kit. so i chose this pirate face. i did it myself.

raarrr!

what has happened to us

is he still crazy for me?

maybe not anymore. does he still love me the way he loved me 2 years and 10 months ago?

he is busy. that's what he always say. and he added that even if he does not have the time to call me or text me, it does not mean he is not thinking about me.

i can tolerate that. but... but not all the time. have i ended up being the last thing in his to do list?
i am not asking to be his priority. i know he is young, has a career, he has his family.. but please.. can he at least sometimes make it up for me?

and i really appreciated all those stuff we did together.. but still, i didn't feel i had his attention completely.

last saturday, after watching the opera, i wanted to stay with him the entire night, but he said we can't. his brother is sleeping at his place. so before he left, i thought we agreed that ill go to his place in pasig on sunday. but you know what he did? he went home to antipolo.. i was so upset.

doesn't he want to spend more time with me? he reasoned that he was just tired and wanted to relax. he'll just get bored in pasig because his tv is broken. what a good reason.. (noot)

i dont think i am just overly whining about the situation. it's just that i don't feel he wants to spend time with me anymore. so just a 5-hour 'date' is enough? and to think we have not seen each other for 6 days. and for all those 6 days, we rarely talk. either he's late for work (so we cant have a morning chat) or he is too tired in the evening and is already sleeping before i can even call him.

what happened to him? am i expecting too much from him? am i asking a lot from him?

i told him what i felt. and he thought that i don't understand him. and after some exhange of messages, here's what he told me: "you are being childish. go look for someone older and maybe they can help me to make everthing clear."

WOW.. well,, i just realized just now.. yeah..maybe i really need to look for someone.. maybe someone new..

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How was my weekend???

I am so stressed. I am conducting trainings since the beginning of the month. And it is my first time to train people. Well, our company's contract has ended and our client has decided to put their own office in Alabang. So, aside from the stress the training is giving me, I am also having a headache worrying what will happen to my career? Our company said that they will transfer us to a new department. Honestly, I am a bit excited about that. I will be in a morning shift with a non-call center job! It will be a new experience!

Tony, one of my trainee is persuading me to join them. NOT! I am tired of taking calls, of being a customer care agent and most of all, having a night shift. I want to experience Friday gimmicks, real lunch and breakfast in the mornings.

Aside from that, J and I will have the same schedule. ;)

By the way last Saturday, our client gave us free tickets to the opera. I got two tickets so I invited J to watch the opera with me. It was great.

We were both dressed up and I thought I was pretty that night. But he didn't even compliment on how I look. :(

Super Inday vs Kris

I got this from an email from Arvin. Natawa lang ako so share ko lang..

Kris: Magandang gabi mga kapamilya, sa gameshow na ito importante ang sagot sa nag-iisang katanungang Deal or no Deal. Ang ating player ngayong gabi ay walang iba kundi ang fastest-rising household services manager na si Inday!

[umentra si Inday at nagpalakpakan ang mga tao]

Kris: Ok Inday, choose a briefcase.

Inday: Kris, I would opt for case #4 please.

Kris: Briefcase # 4… si Sharmel. Inday, matanong ko lang, how did you come up with the number 4?

Inday: Oh, do you really want to know Kris?

Kris: Oo naman. I'm sure kaya ko naman maintindihan yung sasabihin mo eh.

Inday: The number 4 was acquired based on a probability distribution function that involves integrating up to an area greater than or equal to that random number which should be generated between 0 and 1 for proper distributions.

Kris: Syet. tanong tanong pa kasi eh.

Kris: Ok Inday, choose 6 briefcases to open.

Inday: I would opt for 7, 24, 12, 2, 15 and 20.

Kris: Wait lang Inday, usually isa isa lang ang pagbubukas natin ng case…

Inday: Why is that? As if I can change the outcome if we're to open a case each time I blurt out a number as opposed to opening each case immediately one after the other right?

Kris: Hayyy…babaguhin pa talaga mechanics (bulong sa sarili).

Kris: Anwyay, di bale na lang nga… tuloy tayo. Number 7. Natalie buksan na!!

[Yung audience sumisigaw ng LOWER!! LOWER!!!]

Kris: Teka lang, bago natin buksan… Inday, usually ang mga contestants naten ay sumisigaw ng "LOWER" every time magbubukas ng case.

Inday: Kris, I guess that's not the way I was taught in grade school. You see, I was taught that we should only use the comparative form of the word or add "ER" to the adjective if we are comparing two things. And since it is only the first briefcase that we are going to open, we have nothing to compare it to. Am I right?

[natahimik ang audience at napaisip]

Kris: Oo nga no!

Kris: Sige Natalie, Buksan mo na.

[Ang laman ng briefcase 7 ay Piso… Palakpakan ang mga tao]

Kris: Good start! Ano yung next case mo ulit?

Inday: Case number 24 please.

Kris: Chloe… buksan na…

[Audience sumisigaw ulit ng LOWER!! LOWER!!]

Kris: Wait lang guys, Inday may nabuksan ng case baket di ka pa rin sumisigaw ng "Lower"?

Inday: Oh my goodness Kris, how long have you been doing this? Have you ever encountered a value that is lower than a peso in this game? Tell me, is there any value left lower than the one we just opened? Sheesh.

[Napaisip ulit ang audience at natahimik]

Kris: Aarrgghh!!!! Chloe buksan na lang nga, pati na rin yung 12, 2, 15 and 20 buksan na rin para matapos na. [naiirita na]

[At sunod sunod na ngang nabukas ang mga case ni Inday]

[nag-ring ang phone]

Inday: Ahh Kris, to save more time can you tell Banker that I'm not interested in his first offer. In the history of this game of chance, I have yet to see someone accept a first offer from the banker. It's quite pathetic and pretentious for contestants to pause and look around the audience as if asking for advice before ultimately rejecting the first offer. I mean come on, isn't that a waste of airtime?

Banker: Potahhh!!! [narinig sa set kahit sarado ang kwarto ni banker]

- Ito ang unang pagkakataon na marinig ng mga audience ang boses ni banker sa Deal or no Deal.

… dumating na sa kalagitnaan ng show at mukhang minamalas na si Inday…

Kris: Ok Inday, mukhang kelangan na natin ng tulong sa mga friends mo… sino ba yung bigotilyong lalaki na naka-polo? Ano name nya?

Inday: Ahh, that's my master Mr. Montemayor.

Kris: Ahhh sya pala yun, how cute naman pala eh. Sige sir, give us a number.

Mr. Montemayor: Hi Kris, good evening. I'm a fan. I choose number 22 please.

Kris: Ano Inday ok ba yung number 22?

Inday: Whatever, we shouldn't bite the hand that feeds us anyway. Go ahead.

Kris: [taray naman] Sofie, buksan na!

[ang laman ng briefcase 22 ay 5,000]

Kris: Good job! Sino naman yung gwapong lalake na naka jumper na katabi ni Mr. Montemayor? What's his name?

Inday: Ahh, that's my on again off again boyfriend, Dodong the gardener.

Kris: Ooohh, sya pala yun. Ok Dodong, give us a number!

Dodong: Hi babes, I choose briefcase 9 if it's ok with you. If not, it's ok with me as long as it's ok with you.

Kris: Ano raw? Inday, number 9 daw ok say0?

Inday: Yes Kris, it's fine with me.

Kris: Wow ang bait pag kay Dodong. Ederlyn… buksan na!!

…nanlaki ang mga mata ni Inday at hindi sya makapaniwala. Natahimik at mukhang kakapusin sya ng hininga…

Inday: YOU!!! How dare you invade my moment!

[nagulat si Kris at ang mga audience sa reaksyon ni Inday. Nagpatawag si Kris ng commercial break at nagpakuha ng tubig para kay Inday.]

Nagkatitigan sina Inday at Ederlyn. Nakangisi si Ederlyn habang hawak ang briefcase ni Inday.

Ederlyn: Pinapangako ko, Inday… pagbukas luluhod ang mga tala! hahahahaha!

Inday: What? Can you speak up? What are you mumbling up there. Can somebody give her a microphone please?

Kris: Ano ba!! Tama na nga ang drama ninyo, Ederlyn buksan mo na ang case at umexit ka na kung ayaw mong mapalitan! (naiirita na si Kris)

Dali-daling binuksan ni Ederlyn ang briefcase at ang laman ay… P3,000,000.

Nanghinayang ang mga audience… Ang mga natirang values ay 250, 1K, 20K, 50K, and 500K.

Inday: NooOoo…. (sabay tingin kay Dodong at napapaluha), how could you…

Dodong: I'm so sorry Inday, please forgive me.

Kris: Hayyy, drama again. Ang offer ni banker sa pagbabalik ng Kapamilya, Deal.. or No Deal!

[pagtapos ng commercial break… mukhang composed na ulit si Inday]

Kris: Inday, are you okay? Ang offer ni banker ay 99 thousand pesos. 'Sing rami siguro ng pilipinong pinadugo mo na ilong. Is it a Deal or No Deal?

Tahimik lang si Inday tilang may kinocompute sa ulo habang ang mga audience ay nagsisigawan ng "No Deal", ang iba naman ay "Deal".

Kris: Wait lang, kung mapapansin ninyo we have only have 5 cases left, and among those 5, apat doon ay mas maliit na value…

Inday: Kris, do you mind? Can I do my own thinking?

Natameme si Kris, pati ang audience ay natahimik.

Kris: Taray to the max! (pabulong sa sarili)

Inday: Ok, I'm ready. Upon looking at the reality of the situation, 80% of the cases left have at least 49K less than the banker's offer. The only way I can do better than what is offered is that if my case contains the 500k or I'd get to open one of the four lower values. But I have to keep in mind that there's only 20% probability that this would happen. I have to take note, however, that the banker's offer is roughly around 15% lower than the offer I expected based on the arithmetic mean of the values left.

Kris: Lorddd… panaginip ba 'to? Ayokonaaa….

Inday: Accepting a deal for less than the mean should generally be regarded as a weak decision so I would say, NO DEAL!

Limang briefcase na lang ang natitira at kasama na doon ang case ni Inday…

Kris: My God, nakaka-stress itong episode na ito ha. Baka dumugo na rin ang ilong ko sa'yo Inday. Sige Inday, go ahead and choose 1 briefcase!

Inday: Ok Kris, I choose briefcase #5 please?

Kris: Briefcase #5! Mimi bago mo buksan yan I would first like to thank Figliarina by Schubizz for my sandals, Bambi Fuentes for my hair and make-up and Pepsi Herrera for my gown tonight.

Kris: Ok Mimi, buk…

Inday: Ahh Kris, can I also take time to thank a few people? I mean, I did save us a few minutes of airtime right?

Kris: ("kapal naman talaga ng mukha"…bulong sa sarili) Sige, ok lang go ahead. ( naka-smile pa rin)

Inday: Thanks! Yes, I would like to thank Frank Provost for my hair and make-up, Jimmy Choo for my sandals and my dear friend Oscar dela Renta for my gown tonight.

BLAG!! Tinumba ni Kris ang podium at nagwalk-out. Hindi na natapos ang show kaya't binigyan na lang ni Banker si Inday ng kalahating milyon para sa kanyang oras.

Inday: Oh, and thanks to the people of Cartier for sending me these nice earrings for tonight!

[Ito ang isa sa mga un-aired episode ng Kapamilya, Deal or No Deal]

Building Homes in Heaven

I was still tired from my Batad trip and had to file for an SL when I received a message that my lolo in Pampanga died.

I felt so sad and called my boyfriend. I cried. Im going to miss him.

I remember sem breaks spent at his house - a very provincial place. Everytime I go there, I feel at home. The simplicity of the place, the silence, the people (almost all neighbors are kamag-anaks) Everything.. our small talks about his political views (even if he loves erap..haha).

He is a hero, HUK vet, a father, a friend, a selfless neighbor, and a carpenter.

He built the house in pampanga. He designed it too. But it is unfinished and he is gone. My uncle, a priest who talked during the mass told us that a house will be built for him in heaven. He will also build a house for each of us once we go there.

I was crying while my uncle was giving his homily. And even cried more when I saw my mom cried.

But at the same time, I am happy that he is in heaven with my grandma. I know he loves her so much.. I hope they are happy in their own place in heaven

I nearly died in Batad!

nah...almost! It was such a foolish idea for me and my roomie to have an expedition to Batad. I don't know what we were thinking!

Saturday 9pm, we went to Autobus station in Sampaloc (the bus departs at around 10pm) and we headed to Banawe. We slept in the bus and woke up with the mountains welcoming us.

Arriving in Banawe at 8am, we had breakfast at People's Lodge and had a nice glimpse of the Banawe terraces.

At 10, we proceeded to Batad Junction. On the way to Batad Juction, we passed along a cute souveinir shop where 2 girls were pounding (bayo) rice.

After an hour, we were at Batad Junction and negotiated with a tour guide. Bad idea. We paid 700 pesos for the ride to the saddle and for the guide going to Batad Village and Tappiah Falls. We could have paid a porter for 100 that could carry my bag and at the same time guide us to the village! Si Manong Joe talaga! And to think he only paid 50 pesos to his nephew who accompanied us to a 2-hour trek to Tappiah Falls! ARghr! Bad move.

Anyway, it was really a tiring 6-hour walk (Batad Junction-Batad Village-Tappiah Falls-Batad Village). I was already crawling just to climb the trails leading to the falls and almost gave up when some part of the trail looks like death to me.

The falls..hmm...not so majestic, but it was really fun walking in Batad's stone walled terraces. Beautiful!

I also enjoyed the house (ba-leh). It's an Igorot native house with cute wooden sculptures. And we only paid 200 pesos each for the night. I would definitely recommend Mang Ramon's Place. Although it is another 10 minute walk going down and my blisters are really really sore.


In the morning, we borrowed Mang Ramon's Igorot costume and made crazy poses. We'll send our pics to Mang Ramon! haha

We have to leave early, (I wanted to stay longer in Batad after knowing that Mang Ramon does tour guiding and story telling infront of the bonfire about the legends of Batad) to catch the jeepney that will take us back to 'civilization' - Banawe, I mean.

Lucky us! We were able to talked a guy into letting us leave our bags at his place while we spend the rest of the day touring Banawe. We went to Otley Beyer's Museum and learned a lot of stuff about their culture.

We were so tired and hungry. And I love the food I ordered in one of the restaus, just in front Las Vegas. hehe

Anyway, it's going to be another 8 hour drive back to Manila. And I am happy to be back here! hehe

Loving for a Reason

Until now I cannot think why I love him.

I was looking at old photographs and I thought.. he's not cute, he's not even close to being handsome. And recently, he's been gaining weight - - a lot. But why do I love looking at his face?Why do I think he's beautiful? Is it because he's beautiful inside... but he's not. He has flaws.. like me, like every human being. But I love him.

So is it really true that true love is finding that imperfect person but yet we still say he's perfect?

Star City! woo hoo

It's another kiddie day for the couple!

J and I experienced Snow World at Star City yesterday.

He tried the new Star Flyer but I didn't. I might get a heart attack.

So to stop him from calling me chicken, though I know he got scared that he had second thoughts when his safety belts were fasten to him and asked himself what the hell he was doing there?, I dared him to try the Surf Dance. Oh gawd..it was really a crazy ride!

But I enjoyed regardless of my epiglottis shouting time out. Jet got disgruntled and for an hour and we just sat coz he felt dizzy. Now who's chicken?

He even vomitted. Yuk!

We tried my favorite, bump cars and his fave Log Jam. Then watched ballet at Aliw Theatre. The old mascots who had an intermission never failed to make kids laugh.

The highlight of the day was Snow World. His balls were freezing and shrunk into prunes because the place is really cold. We tried the longest ice slide and I got stuck in the middle! It was so embarrassing that one of the guys went up to me and pushed me :(

But I really enjoyed everything!!!!

My new Dance Pad

I was bullying J last Monday because I wanted to play dance revo in the arcade. But, the KillJoy that he is, he would not want to. So I bullied him to buy me a new one. and he thought I was serious about it. So, today, he bought me one! Yahoo...

Im excited to go to his place this Sunday and we'll have a match. I wonder who will win?

Forced Savings

Since our third year anniversary is near, and I am planning an island getaway to Potipot, Zambales I will ask J to give me 100 bucks per week. What do you think?

Because his always reason is that he has no extra money for trips like that, i am imposing a Martial Law under Republic Act 1215. 100 pesos wont be hard, right?

This will be implemented this coming Sunday.

when a ram meets an earth angel

Yeah, I do believe in horoscopes. Since I was a kid, I would scan the pages of my dad's newspaper to look for horoscope page beside the comic strips. Here's my compatibility reading with an Aries guy:

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When Aries and Virgo come together in a love match, they may think at first that they have nothing in common and nothing to learn from one another. This relationship takes time to develop as each partner must learn to understand where the other is coming from. Aries and Virgo can seem like total opposites: While Aries is brash, dominant and aggressive, always jumping into new things and almost always impatient, Virgo is detail-oriented and quiet, even shy, and works patiently toward long-term goals. Aries's energy is fiery and impetuous while Virgo's is much slower and more grounded. It's these very differences, however, that can teach Aries and Virgo so much, once they just look beneath one another's surfaces to see what lies beneath.
Early in the relationship, Aries and Virgo may see nothing but one another's faults. Virgo thinks Aries is way too brash, and Aries thinks Virgo is extremely fussy. But if they focus on one another's strengths instead, they'll discover a great deal. Aries teaches Virgo about fun and excitement, about the spontaneity that is often missing in Virgo's life. Virgo teaches Aries patience and attention to detail, the knowledge that the little things -- and moments -- are important too. Aries can teach their Virgo lover to take things less seriously. Virgo can teach Aries to be polite and value hard work.
Aries is ruled by the Planet Mars and Virgo is ruled by the Planet Mercury. Aries wants to rush out and fight without wasting time preplanning or strategizing. Conversely, Virgo wants to analyze everything and work out all the details before acting. These are such opposite approaches that strife can result. Both Signs must make a conscious effort to learn from one another's method rather than letting their partner's natural rhythm bother to the point of distraction.

Aries is a Fire Sign and Virgo is an Earth Sign. Where Aries is all fiery impetuosity, Virgo is grounded practicality. Virgo weighs all the options before devoting any serious effort, while Aries simply sees what they want and dives in! This is true both in career and in personal relationships -- which can be something of a stumbling block. If Aries has decided it's Virgo they want, they might be frustrated for some time to come, waiting for Virgo to make up their mind about whether the relationship is a good idea.

Aries is a Cardinal Sign and Virgo is a Mutable Sign. Virgo doesn't need to be the leader or the boss; they're glad to follow another's suggestion once they decide it's a viable one. Aries, on the other hand, wants to make those suggestions -- every time. This is a beneficial dynamic if these two Signs are working as a team toward a common goal.

What's the best aspect of the Aries-Virgo relationship? Their great effectiveness as a team -- business or personal. Their personalities, opposite in so many ways, make for a highly complementary relationship

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On First Boyfriend and First Love

Most of us don't end up with our first boyfriend or girlfriend. And sometimes your first bf is not your first love. And you're not even sure if your first love will be the person you'll be spending the rest of your life with.

We have different reasons or stories on how we met our first bf/gf. Most of us get into this mag-'on' thing when we are teenagers. Raging hormones, peer pressure etcetera. But for me it was more on wanting to try what it's like. I thought I was the only person who had this reason. I was chatting with a friend last night and I realized we share a similar situation. John was in college and he never had a girlfriend. And then there is an available girl on the line who seems ready for a relationship. After the text-court setup which was (or is still) uso and easiest courting means, they were already a pair after a couple of weeks. And 5 months later, they broke up. It would be lucky if the two clicked and shared the same interests.

Usually, when we just wanted to test the waters, we immediatey jump into a relationship without even thinking. Are we compatible? How long have I known her? Can I stand her habits and accept some of her not-so good attitudes? And when all your patience ran out and realized you aren't inlove with her, it's dee end for the two of you..

I wasn't hurt when I broke up with my first boyfriend. We met in a restau. He was sitting in another table and before he left, he dropped a paper on my bag with his number. And the adventurous and naughty girl that I am, texted him. Eventually we met and dated. And we became a 'couple'. After 3 months goodbye Carlo, I haven't heard from him. You see, there is really a very very big drawback when you have not known the person for quite some time. We don't even have a common friend and I never met anyone from his side.

Partly, it was my fault - but being the hopeless romantic girl... tsk. I thought I was inlove when I kissed him. and now I just realize that I was not excited to kiss him but I was looking forward to experience kissing a guy. EW!

I must admit it's so hard for me to write this. It's not that I am not over him but nandidiri ako with that experience. Talking about "I want to try what it's like" Oh well, got to learn from this experience - and I learned a lot!Hopefully, not all of you went through the way I did. I did not regret it. Im happy with my present bf - my second BUT my first love.

in silence

Since I was soo tired from yesterday's shopping, I asked J if we could just hang out at my place.

I cooked dinner for him and did nothing the whole afternoon. I just laid on his lap and talked about nothing.

We sat there in silence, holding each other's hands while watching an afternoon show on tv.

He left at around 8 PM. We didn't talk much but I felt I just had the best conversation with him.

xoxo

When I'm Tampo - I Go Shopping

Ah.. i miss shopping! Since i was mad with J for the whole week last week, I asked my housemate if she is available Saturday morning to rummage the stalls in Mall 168 in Divisoria. I went home with a new dress, 2 shirts, skinny jeans (so hard to find the right fit, i have big hips ), accessories, lingeries (im so excited to show them off to J), and new pair of shoes. And all for 1500 - lunch not included. Lunch at a Chinese restaurant was my most expensive treat.

I was deliriously happy and I felt better. I spoke with J afterwards when I got home and he was a bit disappointed because he was the first person I asked to go shopping with me - that was before I got tampo with him.

www.faceyourmanga.com

it was fun making these manga. it's me and my bf. yeah, i know.. he's not cute (haha)

Tacloban City

Here's the other half of my Tacloban vacay-cay

I haven't gone to some of the places and to think I lived there for 12 years! Although they are just a 30-minute trip and almost everyday I pass along these routes. Maybe I was just so lazy to visit them.

So, since I am now a 'blogger' and I want to appreciate the beauty of my own hometown, I visited these places so I can also share them with you!

balyuan park, tacloban city - that's my dad

madonna of Japan, tacloban city

madonna of japan at the background while mom and dad are dating. they're actually just acting so i can have this shot taken :)



Palo Cathedral - where I want to get married

one of the rooms in Sto Nino Shrine - my cam went dead again. argr

this is the beach at the back of our house. Leyte Gulf at the background

McArthur Park

we can forgive.. but reality is we really can't forget.

no matter how hard we try to forget, it already happened.

birthdays - makes me feel im a kid

you might be wondering what happened on my birthday?

my boyfriend picked me up at midnight from my friend's place. I was out drinking with them, Saturday night. Niq, my colleague in college was back from the US and we had a welcome party.

For three years, we always welcome my bday at midnight. on the first year, we both worked at night so we were able to celebrate it. On my 2nd bday with him, he visited me and brought a cheesecake. And this year, he picked me up even if he has a toothache (that after 3 days, he went to see a dentist and had his wisdom tooth pulled out, poor boy)

We went to church in the morning for a thanksgiving and after lunch, while on the way to pick up my friend, I popped a silly question. I asked him to give me a reason why he loves me. And after 10 minutes he still could not give me any answer. Is it because he just love me because I am me, and there is no need to have a reason why he loves me? Probably. I hope.

We waited for 30 minutes for my friend to arrive. So I blew my birthday candle..err..a lighter. My wish? I didn't ask anything better for our relationship because I have it now. But I wished that we will never regret any decision that we had, we have, and we will have.

After a painstaking wait (i am an impatient person) we went to Manila Ocean Park. We enjoyed the place specially the fish spa where small fishes eat your feet's dead skin cells, in other words, kalyo. My bf was giggling soo hard and he didn't want to put his feet in the pool. Malakas ang kiliti. I got mad and told him I paid for it and our 20 minutes is running. I wanted to step on his foot.

For dinner, we went to Harbour Square and ate in a Japanese restaurant with 3 of my friends. We were just laughing and making bukuhan in front of our boyfriends.

I love the 3 birthdays that passed. I was always with him. He made it more special. I don't get to celebrate it with my family because they live in the province. I just want to thank him that he is just there to celebrate it with me no matter how childish I spend the day - for giving in to my whims. And I love him more for that. (see below for my birthdays 2 years ago)

magic in EK, 2006

avilon zoo field trip, 2007

Who Wants to Marry me?

Oh yes, im turning 24 this Sunday. One year older, and I am stuck - with a mediocre career, unchallenging lovelife (sometimes Im looking for a drama in this aspect of my life), renting a small condo with my friend. with no car, and with little savings, I think I am not yet ready to say goodbye to my bachelorettehood.

With constant increase of oil's price, Promil and EQ diapers are soo expensive nowadays! I want to make sure my baby will be healthy and comfortable and of course, will have a nice future!

My salary is not enough and even my boyfriend's (im earning more than he does). But I am happy that I see him as a hardworking man. Although I hear his constant complaints. haha

having a baby requires major planning - baby's needs, his future - a private school, and a good university. Not only the money is the issue here. But time. I just don't want to leave my baby with her nanny that I won't be able to hear her first words and see her first step. I want to be a hands-on mom. But would that be possible if I resign from work and be 100% housewife! I dont want to be idle. An idle wife is a jealous wife, right?

I thought 26 or 27 will be my ideal age of settling down. But guess what, I have to delay marching down that aisle... not unless if I meet a gorgeous rich guy who will marry a not-so so girl.

Bye for now, I have to look for one.

Samar Roadtrip

Finally, Im now able to post my first blog about my vacation in Leyte. Here's the first. More to come

It was a roadtrip I won't forget

From Tacloban City, we drove for four hours to Calicoan Island in Guian. Unfortunately we did not plan to book a room in Surfcamp so we didn't check the resort. And it was way toooo expensive but I was drooling seeing some guys surfing. We went to Dumpao Beach which was very hard to find. We asked the locales for direction. Thankfully, Samareños are very friendly.

We arrived in Sapao Beach, and they did not have a restaurant. We have 3 little kids with us so we planned to look for a resort that serves food.

I remembered on our way to Calicoan, I saw a resort with a beautiful pool (that looks like an infinity pool). The pool faces a beautiful rock formation in the middle of the sea.

So we drove back to Marabut, Eastern Samar. We ended up in Caluwayan Palm Resort which was only an hour away from Tacloban City. I could not say that we wasted time driving to Calicoan Island because the site along the road is ruggedly handsome. And we also went to one of the oldest church in Sulangan, Guian. Everything in that island is wonderful - the people and the food! We alos passed along Balangiga Church (known for the balangiga massacre and bells)

Arriving in Caluwayan Resort (entrance P20), we ordered food. The place is perfect. They have a pool that faces the sea, tidy-looking villas and restful ambience. However, the service, sucks a bit. After having chosen a cottage (P600), we ordered our food. My dad was complaining. They served the cups of rice first. We thought the 'ulam' will follow. But after 10 minutes, the barbeque we ordered has not arrived yet. My dad complained that they should serve the food all at the same time. Well, it was a good suggestion to improve their service. And one more thing, my mom ordered pasta, and I found a little cockroach in the plate! My dad called the waiter and the waiter just apologized. Geez!

I did not want to ruin my trip by their un professional service. So after having eaten half of my sandwich (i lost my apetite) I slipped into my 2 piece and bathed in the pool. They have a separate fee for the pool (P100 for adults). I enjoyed the view, and relaxed.

I went back to our cottage and the manager was speaking with my dad, asking for an apology. When our bill came, the pasta was not included. And we didn't pay the swimming fee for the kids. haha

Anyway, we went back home before sunset And darn, I was blissfully tired. (except my dad, he was my driver)