Who Wants to Marry me?

Oh yes, im turning 24 this Sunday. One year older, and I am stuck - with a mediocre career, unchallenging lovelife (sometimes Im looking for a drama in this aspect of my life), renting a small condo with my friend. with no car, and with little savings, I think I am not yet ready to say goodbye to my bachelorettehood.

With constant increase of oil's price, Promil and EQ diapers are soo expensive nowadays! I want to make sure my baby will be healthy and comfortable and of course, will have a nice future!

My salary is not enough and even my boyfriend's (im earning more than he does). But I am happy that I see him as a hardworking man. Although I hear his constant complaints. haha

having a baby requires major planning - baby's needs, his future - a private school, and a good university. Not only the money is the issue here. But time. I just don't want to leave my baby with her nanny that I won't be able to hear her first words and see her first step. I want to be a hands-on mom. But would that be possible if I resign from work and be 100% housewife! I dont want to be idle. An idle wife is a jealous wife, right?

I thought 26 or 27 will be my ideal age of settling down. But guess what, I have to delay marching down that aisle... not unless if I meet a gorgeous rich guy who will marry a not-so so girl.

Bye for now, I have to look for one.

Samar Roadtrip

Finally, Im now able to post my first blog about my vacation in Leyte. Here's the first. More to come

It was a roadtrip I won't forget

From Tacloban City, we drove for four hours to Calicoan Island in Guian. Unfortunately we did not plan to book a room in Surfcamp so we didn't check the resort. And it was way toooo expensive but I was drooling seeing some guys surfing. We went to Dumpao Beach which was very hard to find. We asked the locales for direction. Thankfully, Samareños are very friendly.

We arrived in Sapao Beach, and they did not have a restaurant. We have 3 little kids with us so we planned to look for a resort that serves food.

I remembered on our way to Calicoan, I saw a resort with a beautiful pool (that looks like an infinity pool). The pool faces a beautiful rock formation in the middle of the sea.

So we drove back to Marabut, Eastern Samar. We ended up in Caluwayan Palm Resort which was only an hour away from Tacloban City. I could not say that we wasted time driving to Calicoan Island because the site along the road is ruggedly handsome. And we also went to one of the oldest church in Sulangan, Guian. Everything in that island is wonderful - the people and the food! We alos passed along Balangiga Church (known for the balangiga massacre and bells)

Arriving in Caluwayan Resort (entrance P20), we ordered food. The place is perfect. They have a pool that faces the sea, tidy-looking villas and restful ambience. However, the service, sucks a bit. After having chosen a cottage (P600), we ordered our food. My dad was complaining. They served the cups of rice first. We thought the 'ulam' will follow. But after 10 minutes, the barbeque we ordered has not arrived yet. My dad complained that they should serve the food all at the same time. Well, it was a good suggestion to improve their service. And one more thing, my mom ordered pasta, and I found a little cockroach in the plate! My dad called the waiter and the waiter just apologized. Geez!

I did not want to ruin my trip by their un professional service. So after having eaten half of my sandwich (i lost my apetite) I slipped into my 2 piece and bathed in the pool. They have a separate fee for the pool (P100 for adults). I enjoyed the view, and relaxed.

I went back to our cottage and the manager was speaking with my dad, asking for an apology. When our bill came, the pasta was not included. And we didn't pay the swimming fee for the kids. haha

Anyway, we went back home before sunset And darn, I was blissfully tired. (except my dad, he was my driver)

Let's Share Our Love

If we can love each other, why can't we?

im back

way home

I just got back from my vacation and I missed home as soon as I was boarding the plane. Before I left, I hugged my pets, kissed my grandmama and bade goodbye to my parents.

My boyfriend picked me up from the airport after I waited for 20 minutes (he got lost on his way because CebuPac uses the new terminal which by the way is soo cool)

If not for my boyfriend, it will be hard for me to be back here in Manila. If not for him, I will be very home sick. Thanks, J. At least being back here makes it more bearable.

Going Back to my Hometown

I will be on vacation. I am going home to Leyte.

Ahh.. I miss my home, my family, my dogs and my grandmother. I will be seeing our new cat and hitting the beach (hopefully there isn't a typhoon) but I will be missing my boyfriend. Sigh. We won't be seeing for 10 days!

Today, we had dinner. I cooked the meal he requested. He hugged me a lot of times today and he drove me to my work. He always held my hand and kissed them while we were on the road.. I know he'll miss me as much as I will miss him.

And without him knowing, I left a card inside his car. I hope he sees it when he gets home. It has a wonderful message:

"your gentle eyes that looks at me, your embrace that says everything will be alright and your hand that always find mine..."

im going home

see that picture? guess where im going this weekend! It'll be a 10-day vacation! im sooo excited

is love a choice?

Someone said that love is a choice. I first agreed.

But i have thought that do we really choose who to love? or we just surprisingly realize that we are already falling in love and choose to commit to that person?

So I thought, love isn't a choice, but commitment is.

Turning Off Point

Have you ever experienced being courted but suddenly the guy just stopped courting you?

I was chatting with one of my girlfriends, Tin and she was a bit 'pissed off'. It's a long story, the guy trying to befriend her again even after last year this guy courted her then suddenly just stopped. And Tin, she thought that it's "this is it" moment for her (she had no bf for 3 years after her first). She did have a bf during college but they broke off because of a religious something misunderstanding, the praising-praising, singing-singing, sharing-sharing thingie that I got also involved in because Christian Luanzon (varsity player was a member also). Unfortunately, we had the wrong reason in joining the group and we aren't saints.

Alrigth, the reason why I am writing this is that I am just curious why guys just suddenly stop. I asked my bf about it after we had dinner with Jaja. Jaja is one of my friends. Marco courted her for quite a long time but then he just stopped. And until we graduated college we never knew why. Jaja and Marco weren't friends during our university days or at least they don't talk with each other anymore and Jaja was left hanging with a big question mark up above her head. But jaja is now happy with his bf, Stanley.

After asking my bf and my guy colleague, they both gave the same answer: that maybe at one point, the guy got turned off on something. I asked jb, my colleague what are these possible TO things. He said, he doesn't like girls with putok or smell. haha i think everyone of us will mind a smelly partner (if a partner cant even take care of her/himself like hygiene, can he/she take care of the relationship?) Maybe it's different with some guys on the things that turns them off, but do you think it's unfair with the girl, specially if the girl likes this guy, too?

Courting.. you like a girl, a girl that you are attracted to. Ok, I really hate it when love really starts with physical attraction. But what can I do? That's how love starts. You get attracted, you court this girl then something turned the guy off then he stops courting. Girl left confused? Do you think it was really love after all? ok, we are just talking about courting, no love yet. coz love grows after you get attracted. haha am i confusing? all i just want to say is it's so unfair. Why not tell the girl the problem? But hmmm.. thinking about that, how can a guy tell it? and can the girl accept it as a constructive criticism (lack of better term, sorry). Or should the girl confront the guy to know where she went wrong. (but girls, remember, never change yourself for the wrong reasons, what am i saying?)

Anyway, girls get turned off, too. so they basted the guy or they turn the guy down. Sigh..

Now, it made me think if this has happened to me? I really can't remember. Anyway, being turned down or being left hanging, for me, gives the person a better opportunity to think, ponder what went wrong and improve yourself right? Maybe we just have to move on after a series of basteds and enjoy whatever we have. Maybe the right guy is just under your nose... lurking behind your booger. hahaha

sigh.. it's weekend again. im off to attend a bridal shower this evening - a lingirie party !

is a cheater always a cheater?

Cheating is something I think I can't forgive - or would be so hard for me to forgive. It's something I can't imagine happening to me. :(

But why do guys or girls cheat? Is it because we are dissatisfied with our partners? Or we seek the attention we need from another person? Do we cheat because we have grown out of the honeymoon stage or do we cheat because we simply want to prove something?

And once you have been cheated on, are you ready to forgive? or decide that it's over? When you forgive, do you think your partner wont go back to his cheating phase?

But how do we know that a partner wont cheat again or if he/she is likely to commit the same heartbreaking mistake?

Here are some signs that I read from Yahoo personals:

signs that he is not a chronic cheater:
1. Your partner is truly remorseful and regrets having cheated. Look for heartfelt apologies that ring true when you hear them. He/she accepts total blame for his/her betrayal.
2. Your partner cuts off all contact with the relationship perpetrator.
3. He/she shows a renewed appreciation and devotion towards you.
4. You wind up having deep, open, and honest conversations with each other about your relationship, including what was missing in it and how you'd like it to progress.
5. Your partner wants psychotherapy or counseling either individually or with you to understand his/her own dynamics and to improve your relationship.

And just how do you know if the cheating has resurfaced?Here are some common signs that may indicate secret betrayal:

* He/she works late a lot.
* He/she suddenly takes trips you aren't invited to go on.
* He/she spends too much time with hobbies that don't include you.
* You get mysterious phone calls with hang-ups.
* You find bills for unexplained hotel stays or gift-type items.
* Intimacy in your relationship dramatically decreases.
* He/she grows more distant or agitated than usual.

Forgiving isreally a gamble. And it is something that the two of you should really talk about. If you want to forgive your partner, you must be ready to start in a clean slate.

i just hope my partner is loyal like me (ahem)