On Firsts..

I must admit maaga akong lumandi.. no.. i meant, i first experienced to have a crush when I was in pre-school. then I had my serious first crush in 4th grade. and first puppy heartbreak in fifth grade. in highschool, i had a lot of crushes, from schoolmates to teachers and boybands to schoolmate's married uncle! haha but never did i have a boyfriend. i was chubby or should i say fat! who would notice me? they say I have a pretty face but who cares, teenage guys would go for a complete package, right? - pretty and sexy. sadly intelligence was not part of their criteria. and even if it was, im not that intelligent.. just smart LOL

now talking about highschool.. there was this guy, his name is lark who i learned that he had a crush on me. we were on the same year. both of us were juniors. well, after knowing he likes me, i felt like i like him too.

i think it's a usual feeling - the boy likes girl, girl learns about it, girl eventually likes boy. experienced that? maybe not for all.. but it does happen.. coz it happened to me with lark.

after the feeling became mutual (though we rarely speak with each other), my friends told me that he said he'll dance with me on our prom night. but guess what, after declining other guys (of course, i want to be available when he'll ask me) the last two songs were being played and still he didnt ask me. irritated and impatient that i was, i asked a boy instead! haha I asked Randy to dance with me. On the last song, I saw Lark, he was dancing with another girl :(

I didnt see who the girl was but later after 2 years I found out it was Nora my kabarkada. haha but no bitterness here.

I don't know, i felt that even we were dancing with another partner, i think we looked at each other. *sigh..
what if i waited? will he dance with me?
maybe i was just afraid that he won't really ask me to dance, and to avoid frustration i asked Ranil to dance with me, so I have reason why we didnt dance together.

After graduation, we went to the same univeristy. Rarely see each other.

But one time, when I went home for Christmas, we were on the same ship! Our rooms were adjacent. haha talking about coincidence. I felt like trying to relive the past. Too bad, we both had bf and gf. But we dined together.. *wink and exchanged stories of our current relationships. I was hoping that maybe well meet at the deck and imagine ala-titanic together.. haha one of the ship from sulpicio just sank during typhoon frank - that's titanic (tsk tsk, my prayers for the victims)

I was even proud to tell him I have a BF.. haha hoping that he'll regret something. LOL